It's been a rough week. So many unhappy things happened, and I can't even hold my emotions in any further. I have been keeping tabs with the latest updates on some of my favourite celebrities or YouTubers and this month just seemed to go extremely wrong.
First, most of you might know about Cory Montieth's death. A really talented Actor who acted as one of the leads in 'Glee'. I had never really watched any of the 'Glee' episodes, but I do listen to their soundtracks as in my opinion, they always recreate the best song covers ever. I remember listening to Lea Michele sing 'I Feel Pretty', that was one of the most inspiring songs EVER. But now due to Cory's death, I really have no idea how Lea is going to cope with it being expected to get married in just 2 weeks.
Secondly, remember the 13-year-old girl named Talia who was one of the hottest make-up tutorial YouTubers? She was special because of her fighting spirit and how she was still so optimistic and went chasing her dreams even though she was diagnosed with cancer. I discovered her a few years back and I instantly thought she was pretty and she dared to serve. Having been on Ellen Degeneres' shows for a few times and also been on Cover Girl's Magazine, I think she indeed fulfilled most of her dreams when she passed on just not long ago. Imagine a 13 year old girl.. So much mature then most of us who starts to complain every single time something minor just didn't go the way you want it to. Life is just about being sad or angry, but life is about being who you are and who you want to be. Not that every single one of you have to be happy and fun every single day, minute or second. It's not wrong to have emotions and I think it's perfectly fine to be sad or angry, to cry or to beat someone you always disliked up because emotions are not there for nothing. I pray for her and know that she's in peace, happy and healthy like how she always dreamt to be.
Finally, my heart goes to Quxxn's family and friends. Being one of the most inspiring YouTubers, I would always watch her LP videos on YouTube ALL THE TIME. Although she doesn't show her face, but just by listening to her voice, would always brighten up my day. I really loved how she does her videos and how she always makes the effort to record one even when she's really sick. Weird how someone so unfamiliar to you can affect your emotions in such a way. A week ago when Quxxn mentioned about going for surgery, I took it really lightly. Thinking maybe a week later, she would start posting up LPs again. But little did I know that it wasn't any ordinary surgery but one that took her life eventually. Quxxn passed away yesterday. Rest In Peace. I've never felt so emotional since my grandmother passed away when I was 13.
Funny how when I don't even know how she looks like or what her real name was and how affected I am right now as I am writing this post. I just want to say, I am very very grateful to have came across her LPs and never ever regretted watching them when I was supposed to do my homework. I don't know what to say. In one month, just one month, 3 of the most inspiring people that I know that exists in this world passed on. I can't even..
I've heard people say 'Only the good die young'. What does it mean to you?
I always tell myself not to complain about how life sucks and how maybe if I die, people might start noticing my presence. I've heard a lot of people saying this "Everyone has had the idea of death." That's true, because everyone has definitely felt sad and vulnerable in a certain point of life. But just the idea is enough.
My dad ever asked me a question before, "你相信人死了会到天堂吗?", "Do you believe in going to heaven after death?"
I was always skeptical about things regarding such ideas.
All I said was judging from others who are still living in this world, when somebody dies, we lose a human living in this world.
So my dad said that what I said is true because someone who is dead can only continue to live in this world when other people continue to do what he or she has been doing when he or she is still alive. In other words, to pass down their genes or work or maybe to be remembered by their loved ones.
Quxxn was a strong woman, being so optimistic about everything that's happening around her despite the fact that she always is sick. I respect her and I will always remember her. She will always be living in all her fans' hearts and her videos on YouTube will stay alive.
Peace.

Hugs and more HUGGGGSSSSS <3, TKL :)
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